Week One

New Challenge began last night. I really want to do good this time. I have my sister's wedding in 5 weeks. (Have I mentioned that it is a strapless dress?)
I kept my food and exercise log all day, I'm really gonna try to stick to "If your a biting, your a writing" thats what my coach is always saying. I've had 1020 calories today, and 60 grams of protein, and really upped my water intake today. (that also increased my exercise, since the bathroom is on the second floor, lol)
I did the Jillian, 'No More Trouble Zones' video. Wow, its crazy. My upper legs are really feeling it. I can only imagine what I will feel like in the morning. I'm proud of myself, I got through the entire thing. I had to modify some of the moves, but I did a lot better than I thought I would.
Im also really trying to move more at work, I got up and walked a lot more than usual.

Weight Loss Challenges

I'm back, Hopefully for good this time. I know I keep disappearing, but its because I'm so frustrated with this plateau. I keep going up and down, I feel like I'm on the rolller coaster from hell.
My Weight Loss Challenge ended this week, I lost 11.5 inches, but only 1.4 lbs. In 9 weeks, I only lost 1.4 lbs. How sad is that?? I know that its better than gaining, but darn it, I want, no need to lose weight.
I'm supposed to start another challenge next week. I dont know if I should, or if I should just take a break. Dont get me wrong, I'm not talking about giving up on the weight loss, just taking a break from the weekly weigh in classes. I just feel so frustrated with my lack of progress, that Im stressing my self out to the point where I am gaining, which is depressing me.

I finally have access to a computer so I can post more than 150 characters, Yay!!

So this is the first week of the weight loss challenge. I am doing pretty good so far. I did try to eat some Tilapia today, it was not so good. I tried this seafood rub seasoning on it, but it didnt help. I will keep trying, I'm sure there is some kind of fish that I will like.

I am in such a funky mood, I'm not sure why, I cant seem to sleep, I am covered in hives all over my arms.

A new challenge began on Thursday, July 17, i gained 9 lbs since the end of last challenge. Got to do better this time.

Ok, final class and last weigh in is over, total lost 13.6 lbs and 5 1/2 inches. i know i should be happier, but not even close to my goal.

Tomorrow is my final weigh-in, i worked my butt off at the gym, 55 minutes of cardio, but i am starving. I need to avoid temptation, help!!

I only have two more days until my final weigh in for this session, i lost 12 lbs so far, so i guess i can't be too upset, but i know i am capable of much more.

My first mobile blog test

two months later

Hi, Sorry I've been AWOL for so long. I've been trying to relocate my motivation. I just cant seem to move the scale in the right direction. I have been exercising everyday, I just cant seem to get my eating in check.
I know I've been going through a lot over the past 18 months, and I had just shut down emotionally, but now I am ready to start living again. I am finally allowing myself to feel, and its both scary and amazing at the same time. I'm ready to take the next step in so many areas of my life.
So far, I've lost over 50 pounds, and I feel great, I have gained so much confidence, I know I have so far yet to go, but it is so exciting to be able to wear clothes that are 4 sizes smaller, If I feel this good now, I can't begin to imagine, how I will feel when I get to my goal.
I've learned not to care what others think of me, I am finally beginning to like myself, and honestly, isn't that what matters?

New Challenge.

The new Weight Loss Challenge began on April 15. I did really good the first week, I lost 10.6 lbs, but I know that is not a healthy amount of weight to lose in one week, and apparently my body agrees, because when I stepped on the scale this morning, I have gained back 4 of those lbs. But I'm hoping that is only because of that special time of the month.
I have been walking the nature trails in the park, It is so peaceful, and the surroundings are beautiful. It kicks my butt, but it is so worth it. I am going to try to remember my camera so that I can take some pictures to post on here.
I know that this is not much of a post, but I will write more later....

STOP!!!

Ok, Time to refocus, my challenge has been over for only 4 days and I feel like I have eaten everything in sight. I've got to stop and get back on track, I know how easy it is to gain it back, and I've worked too hard to let that happen.
My mini goal is to lose 10 pounds before the next challenge begins on April 15.

Weight Loss Challenge

I have been doing these weight loss challenges, my second challenge came to an end this past week. I have mixed emotions regarding it. I was very distracted this time around due to my insane life, and family issues. So I didn't really apply myself as well as I could have.

First let me give you a little info about the challenge. It is a 12 week program, The cost is $35 to join. We have weekly weigh-in meetings/classes. If you miss any classes, you have to pay $5 per missed class, and if you gain weight, you have to pay $1 per pound. All of the money collected (minus any administrative/supplies fees) is paid out to the top 5 participants. The person who loses the highest % wins 50% of money, second places wins 30% and third place wins 20%. Prize money is also paid out to the person who loses the most inches, and the most amount of pounds. Sounds simple enough right?

Okay, well I have come in 5th place yet again, for losing the most pounds. I don't really have a chance at winning because I have so much to lose. I lost 25 lbs this challenge, which worked out to be 9.6%, the winner won $350.00, and she lost 16 lbs, which worked out to be like 13 or 14%.

I should be so excited for losing what I did, I lost 34 inches and lost 25 lbs in 12 weeks, and for about 7 weeks of that time, My father was in the hospital so I really didn't work out, and lets face it, the hospital cafeteria ironically, does not have the healthiest of food choices. So why am I being so hard on myself.

My Why

What is my Why? That is why is it that I want to change my life? It's really simple I guess, I want to LIVE. I'm 34 years old and I have never lived. I never go out, I never do anything that I would like to do because of my fear of being ridiculed. I've heard the laughs, the horrible comments, and yes even at times, I have heard the "Moos"
I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the too-tight seats at the movies or the ball games, or worse yet I'm tired of being afraid of where I can go, or what I can use or not use because of weight limits.
I want to LIVE. I want to fly on an airplane without fear of needing a seat belt extender, or worse yet, needing to have to buy two seats. I want to go on my cruise and be able to go horseback riding, para sailing, or whatever else my heart desires. I don't want to have to scour the brochures to find the weight restrictions.
I want to go to the amusement park and ride all the roller coasters, I want to play ball with the kids. I want to be able to have my own kids one day. I want to love myself enough to stop abusing myself and my body.
I've hidden behind my weight for so many things, I've avoided living, trying, and applying myself to all the things in my life that I deserve. I've settled for far too little for too long. But no more will I do that. I deserve all the great things that life has to offer. I will change my life physically, mentally and spiritually.